Who Am I?

Who am I?

I think this must be the question that erupted the great path in the minds of that great spiritual seekers.

Am I going to define you or me(I)? Perhaps.

Before I start let me be clear that the whole article which you're going to read this time is not written by me completely there is a mixture of thoughts of Great spiritual leaders and of course mine.

Last Night I was watching Swami Sarvapriyananda's video on the concept of "who am I?".

Video has defined so many aspects that so many gates have been opened and this time I am going to elaborate the concept in our own way. 

As we know the human can have only three states of consciousness 1st is waking 2nd is sleeping and the final i.e 3rd deep sleep. Yes?

So before I proceed further let me elaborate on the facts by describing the story of one of mine.

These were the days my grandma has become so much weak that her end was near and every second was going with great grief. That time I slept and suddenly I listened to the scream of the father when I awakened wore my chappals and ran towards my grandma's room, Room was full of peoples. Everyone was talking about the greatness of this Divine lady who had dedicated the whole of her life to making and beautifying the life of her children and grandchildren without expecting anything from them.

When I watched the moment tears erupted in my eyes as the lady who had nourished me with the best of her love and care is not going to be visible after this time. She is unconscious now, just a body, the heap of soil can never be able to think, never be able to love me. When I saw tears in the eyes of my father, I started feeling a little heavy from inside and started feeling that my eyes are filling with water, I couldn't watch the moment but cannot scream and cannot breathe also. 

But what's that I listened to the sound of my mother, Rahul... get up you are going to be late for school, It's already 8 o'clock, don't you wanna go to school? I awoke and took a deep breath as it was only a dream. After getting up I ran towards my grandma and embraced her. With her grace, I was feeling so nice now she's alright, smiled a little and said to me, 'son, never miss the school as this is going to make you a good personality'. 

When I was going to school I realized that the dream was also realistic and at that time also I could realize or experience all the moments as now, lest it may be a dream? Are there two worlds?

That question is answered now. Because neither is this truth nor that. Because they were momentary and going to be finished after the moment, the experience of that moment, and remembrance of another moment. Then what is truth?

Actually, you are the truth? again who are you? Are you this mind? you will say no, I am different from my mind, I and mind are distinct. Then are you this body? Again you will say no I'm also not this body. I am different from this body because this is my body.

Mandukyaupanishad says you are 'Turiya' the pure consciousness. See when I was sleeping there was something that was present in sleep and also in awakening to experience the moment and that was this consciousness. Isn't it? Hence this is true and we are the consciousness. Also if you can believe then this consciousness is not different at all of us. When you love someone another person definitely recognizes your perception and waves and in response, you get the same. If you act like you like him and it is not real then this is not going to be real and not for a longer period.

Obviously, If you hate someone you are going to get hate in response. So please never enable your mind to hate because this defiles our consciousness and hence ourselves.

As ornaments are made up of gold they are gold in deeps but we call them necklace, ring, and earring, etc. When we remove the gold there is no ornament.

Obviously, the same way this consciousness made up of energy, and when we remove the energy there is nothing. There is a lot to think of, to describe.

When we love there are no expectations and hence my grandma. Smartest example of this. Guys after many years I lost my grandma the only unresolved thought that remained in my mind is that because of me she has never got ecstasy. I just thought to provide her the bliss but when the time came she was no longer there. This the smartest dilemma of this life that exuberance only comes if you are empty.

 Guys, we will talk about it more, see you next time. Good Bye keep learning. Love you all so much.